Haha.

Does it give you more courage to ask this anonymously? 

Notice how I haven’t talked about him lately? That’s because I told him I needed space and basically I was going to let him down easy, but no he can’t leave me alone.

He texted me at 4 am begging me to keep seeing him. He told me to do him the courtesy of calling him and having one last conversation. Can you believe this shit?

I’m not doing him any courtesy! We went on two fucking dates. Fuck!

He has to be the clingiest man I’ve ever met. During my much needed “space,” he kept texting, calling and fb messaging me. I told him I wanted to be left alone to think and dammit if he didn’t keep on.

Did I mention we had two fucking dates? TWO!

So I just texted him and told him all this. He said I never said for him not to message me. He’s obviously delirious. 

LEAVE ME ALONE, BENNY!

If he really hadn’t explained his shyness/lack of dating experience with American women, I would’ve ended this.

It’s hard dating an Asian guy.

Thursday will be 29 days. 29 days of talking/texting/going on dates with Noah and no kiss/no hand hold.

OMG!

Noah and I’ve been texting quite a bit since I last saw him. He called me hunnie and hun and it was adorable. He said he’s not as shy as he was so maybe that will mean we will finally kiss Thursday. I really hope so!

He’s killing me, guys. If he doesn’t do it Thursday, I might actually do it. I can’t take it anymore. I’m sure gonna try my hardest not to, but damn this is ridiculous.

I can’t take it anymore.

Noah and I have to kiss.

It has to happen. Thursday.

So prepare for me to blog about it because it’s going to happen.

Another thing that’s killing me: Not officially dating Noah. Since Noah told me he liked me, I haven’t went on dates with anyone else. (I’m sure you’ve all noticed.)

I’m all about Noah. 

Maybe after he kisses me, it’ll be official. You know what I’m going to look at my calendar right now and see how long it’s been since we started talking/going on dates…

BRB

It was our seventh date. Noah came over to watch the last F&F movie. We talked about America. We talked about Vietnam. He asked me if I wanted to go with him the next time he visits Vietnam. I said we would see. He said it might not be for a year or two, but I was happy he asked me. It sounds like he’s thinking of me in the future tense so that’s good.

Not much happened through the movie. He brushed my hand. I touched his arm several times and he touched my hand several times.

After F&F, we watched Wanted and by this time I was super tired. It was nearing 2 am and I needed to sleep. We did the whole awkward stand by the door thing for another two hours and we hugged twice. The last time we hugged he kissed me on the cheek. I was actually really surprised by it.

He told me everytime he spends time with me he likes me more. Then, he smiled. It was cute.

I couldn’t believe he actually kissed me on the cheek. I was majorly surprised.

After he left, I laid down and he started texting me when he got home.

He started off by saying he hoped he didn’t make me feel uncomfortable by the cheek kiss. I told him he didn’t. Then, he said he was sorry for keeping me awake so late. (It was 4 am by the time he left.)

He said he really wanted to kiss me, but he was too shy. He said that’s why he stayed so late. I told him not to worry.

Then, he said he really likes me a lot and he’s not very good at this dating thing. He said he would get better and for me not to have any nightmares.

It was adorable.

It made me feel a lot better about the whole not kissing thing. I was getting super frustrated by it. I mean imagine having seven dates with someone with no real contact. It’s been almost over a month, guys!

That’s a long time!

As for now, our next date is Thursday. Maybe that will be the big day. Haha.